Dear Diary, 

Do you ever felt you found your inner peace with someone? The person who gave you peace. Who wants to be there, who gives you what you had never received, reassurance, words of affirmation and always checking up on you to ensure thst you are alright? I didnt find. He came without me expecting it to happen. 

It was indeed a miracle. We seperated 11 years ago (we were not even dating) without letting each other know that we liked each other. But Allah's plan is indeed great. He made us walk through a lot of hurdles, heart breaks and meeting the wrong people. Which lead us to each other. 

The person was you. Beyond words to explain what i felt. The journey to move forward and to let go of all the pain that was holding me back. The miracle of Allah's plan. To put me with a person who i had never expected to be with. 

11 years was indeed a rough journey but now we got each other, building each other up, supporting each other's dream and be there for each other through high and low. Thank you for everything T.A. 

Allah took away my little boxer and gave me a wrestler. To Infinity and beyond, to Jannah together - In shaa Allah warasul. 

T.AxS.A ♥️

Xoxo, 

_galangal_ 

Moving forward 🫰

Dear Diary, 

As we bid goodbye to February, i am welcoming March with full of happiness and positivity. Looking forward to Ramadhan and Terawih with Mak for the 1st time. 

A few days ago, i had a counselling session again. It was a really quick session and my counselor was indeed happy to see me glowing and showing a lot of positivity. The journey of seeing me grow as a person was really a big leap ahead. I told her now, i am at peace and slowly gaining happiness. 

There are still times where i will have the urge to cry especially having a dream about CW. I dont know why each time i pass by places or dream of him would make my feelings distorted and my mood will go down to the core. 

I still do not have the courage to swing by Jurong East Stadium to Catch TPUFC matches. There were indeed a lot of memories. Although it was only 6 months, it sure carries ALOT of memories together. 

I do not need to say much of how much i loved CW wholeheartedly. All i could say was, if only he understood how big my love for him was. Maybe he didn't love me as much as i do. 

Nevertheless, i have already forgiven him dunya and akhirat. Had always kept in my prayers to be under the protection of Allah swt and may Allah ease all of his journey to be a mualaf. I do not want to hold grudges as I don't wish to see him in front of Allah for not forgiving him in this dunya. 

I am moving forward. Towards my goals and peace. Still hustling to pass my Diploma with flying colors. Ya Allah, may 2023 be the year full of blessings and positivity for me. In Shaa Allah warasul. 

Xoxo, 

_galangal_