Moving forward 🫰

Dear Diary, 

As we bid goodbye to February, i am welcoming March with full of happiness and positivity. Looking forward to Ramadhan and Terawih with Mak for the 1st time. 

A few days ago, i had a counselling session again. It was a really quick session and my counselor was indeed happy to see me glowing and showing a lot of positivity. The journey of seeing me grow as a person was really a big leap ahead. I told her now, i am at peace and slowly gaining happiness. 

There are still times where i will have the urge to cry especially having a dream about CW. I dont know why each time i pass by places or dream of him would make my feelings distorted and my mood will go down to the core. 

I still do not have the courage to swing by Jurong East Stadium to Catch TPUFC matches. There were indeed a lot of memories. Although it was only 6 months, it sure carries ALOT of memories together. 

I do not need to say much of how much i loved CW wholeheartedly. All i could say was, if only he understood how big my love for him was. Maybe he didn't love me as much as i do. 

Nevertheless, i have already forgiven him dunya and akhirat. Had always kept in my prayers to be under the protection of Allah swt and may Allah ease all of his journey to be a mualaf. I do not want to hold grudges as I don't wish to see him in front of Allah for not forgiving him in this dunya. 

I am moving forward. Towards my goals and peace. Still hustling to pass my Diploma with flying colors. Ya Allah, may 2023 be the year full of blessings and positivity for me. In Shaa Allah warasul. 

Xoxo, 

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