Dear Diary,
I will be writing a letter to my dad.
Dear Ayah,
Similar like Mama's letter. My childhood wasn't that great. Full of violence & made me in fear to speak my thoughts out & to ask a lot of question. Again, i know Lala was your favorite. I was the outcast one. Had only gotten attention from Mak & late Bapak.
You did so much for Lala but never much for me. I worked my ass off, till what i became today. Till you realized that Lala did a lot of hurt towards you & you only started to get closed to me after i got engaged.
It had always been " you are big enough to think, to know & etc". Whereas i yearn for my parents love & attention. Which i had never had since young.
You didnt spend a lot of time with me too. It has always been Haikal, Zahidah & Emma. As usual i had always been excluded. I am like anak terbiar when everyone is out with their own family. Whereas mine, i had nothing. I only had Mak & Mak is kinda old to be walking around here & there.
The reason i had always been with my friends was because my family did not have time for me. Cannot find time with me.
I just felt my life was fucked up Ayah. :,(
Love,
Your eldet daughter
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